Dienstag, 11. Juli 2017

" TAKU " - Grosses Wasser Tangaroa MK IV James Wharram Design




When I was young I used to sail sometimes on the Sorpesee in NRW / GERMANY  and on the Ijsselmeer  in Holland ...

When I was grown up and adult - after quitting my Job and Flat surviving a severe Psychosis in 1982 -  I needed fresh breeze.

I left the "RAT RACE" and became a Globetrotter and Sailor.

In Antigua W.I.  I found a new home - where I stayed and worked for almost two years - interupted by journeys back to Europe and to U.S.A., where  I stayed at Newport  R. I.  for crewing reason and sailed down to Venezuela, delivering a fast and new Briton Chance called " S.V.  Machete " for a german billionar who build that ship.

My first transatlantic crossing I sailed a Wharram Cat called " Ladino "  build by an Argentinian - we both managed the trip well - it lasted about two month to Spain - where we made Landfall in Vigo / Cap Finisterre .

I enjoyed it very much riding " LADINO "  - so I got exited to build a Tangaroa MK IV myself.

Here an impression of what to expect :     TAKU

Lately I found " Ladino " as " Winti Wai " in the Net - for sale !!! ...  here she goes : 

" Winti Wai " alias former " Ladino "

So what shall I do now after all those years - spent in Berlin under circumstances I would not have thought of in former daays.
Thirty years went by - after I had to quit my free life for health reasons - I passed through my second Psychosis  around 1988 till 1992 - but slowly recovered and made somewhat like a success surviving the coercive Torture of the psychiatric system up to now.

Now I am nearly about to finish my Rcovery and I am nervous to rise Up again.

With my dog Spike - I want to travel toFrance - Cote d"Azur, to get in touch with old ties maybe and look what my sealegs are worth after all.

So - eventually I am wellset financially then - so I can make my living on my own and probably invest in a boat - whatever...  ??? !!!

Let us see !!!

My residence in Berlin will stay - so I do have place to turn to - in case I fail !!

Destination AMERICA - SOUTH-MIDDLE-NORTH - via CARIBBEAN  where we stay at English Harbour Antigua WI - well known by me.

This might be the first etappe for I - should I obsiege - will round the Globe further on maybe !!

This is a very old dream I dream -that is not forgotten through aall those harsh years.

Maybe I am lucky - so that I can take that vessel  by chance  :    SV " BLADERUNNER "


O.K.  >>>  see ya later Alligator


There is an area in the Bermudatriangle I visited several times and which is burnt into my Lifeline.

I want to return - to experiance again what I did in 1984 when I first travelled that area.

I am not afraid - because I crossed atlantic three times.

I am experianced and know what to expect !!!

Maybe there is someone nice to join in the trip for some time or longer ??!!

Lets see !!!

" A Cooaaaffiiiee   A  Cigarette  and Up She Goes  " 
John Amos ( Owner of SV " Merlin " )





C/O  the " SEAWULF "  and  " SPIKE " the Boatsman 



Samstag, 29. April 2017

TODAY !!!

Dear Friends !!

Nowerdays I am still stuck in Babylon.
I mean I am forced to stay in Berlin some times by monetary reason.
I am awaiting my heritage - my parents are gone now - and they left a small fortune for me.

I am waiting for things to be sort out, so I can plan the future, for me and Spike.

 >>>  ...  : US & THEM

We both want to move to France for a while.
There is a place for people like me - called the "postpsychiatrie" .
It is a kind of refuge for victims or survivors of the psychiatrie system.

Since a year or so, I left the "system" and reject forced medication.
So far - I get along very well. 

From day to day I feel a kind of recovery that gives me good feeling in the whole.
Long missed emotions and consciousness are possible.
So I am on a way of real recovery after almost thirty years of coerced treatment.

For what ??

I experianced a severe psychosis - my second in my life (after 1982) - around 1987 to 1993 - but recovered slowly by the time.
I was bound to join the psychiatric movement and lost nearly everything I ever had.
Material and even my human rights had been cut.
No chance to work or even to make my lving on my own anymore!!

I started  to practise OutSiderArt - which gives a lot of pleasure and helps to express what you feel and see.

>>>  ...  : OutSiderArt

This closes the ring for me because I studied Art at the H.d.K.-Berlin from 1989 to 1993, with the aim to finish as an arttherapist.
It didnt happen because I was forced to stay in this coercive system that does not allow anything like this.
Nowerdays there is a shift in paradigma and peers of the system are highly preferred to change that old system into somewhat humane issue.

An Example of a shift eg. progress in thinking :  

 Overshooting / Schizophrenia / New Paradigma / Torture

So I absoved an education with "Experianced Involvement" -  a recovery movement that allows the applicant to work as a professional on eye to eye level - as expert by experiance (Recovery Guide) - with everybody else tied with the psychiatric system. 



Since 2008 I work in an honorable condition at my Initiative SnowVhite - a soteria and place for psychiatric vivtims to recover.
I specialized in Psyche & Addiction as a certified Recovery Guide.

This Initiative is running well and there is always somebody in need.

Since that time I also engaged in german network of voice hearing people - which I experianced myself  for about 25 years, but managed to get rid of the voices a couple of years ago - there is a severe tinnitus and loss of hearing capacity forced by maltreatment of medication.

After all I am lucky to have survived that kind of treatment - a lot of my companions on the wy are dead now.

Very sad !!!

Now is the time to look forward and start something new.
It is the third part of my life after having lived the freedom of a globetrotter and sailor after leaving the boring and useless living system we are forced to live in our socalled "western world".
I know a lot of places and possibilities to live a life you want to - without forced to join the "rat race".
I experianced the coercive "healing system" or what they call it - with a great loss of time and all my chances are taken away by this system.
Even my financial status is fiixed underneath the existing level - I was forced to give them my fortune I had - in turn I live a forced poorness ordered by state.

So what I try - is to break out a second time!!!

I am nowerdays experianced enough, not to do the same mistakes I did - I was very naive and unexperianced those times expecting something like real help that make any sence.

I got fucked up where I went!!! 

So I am on my own with my dog - and I am on the move again.

First stop will be CAMPUS VIVENDI in France - a place where I will meditate and plan the rest of my life ...

>>>  ...  : PostPsychiatricRefuge

So let see what is going on in the world, that is going more and more into a catastrophic direction.

See my opinion expressed in Art ...  :   OUTLOOK

Fortunately I do have some ties I really like and I will not forget.
>>>  !!!  ...  :  Sarah Johanna Eick


See ya over there !!!!




Mittwoch, 4. November 2015

By Appointment !!

Here is my temporary online gallery according to the exhibition early this year.

All subjects to purchase ... :



See ya !!

Dienstag, 20. Oktober 2015




Black Magic Woman


To all nice, handsome and loving girls in the caribean I learned to know and who have taken care of me.

Girls who simply want to be loved - and nothing more.

Hotblooded and sweet.

Especially the one I loved in Trinidad and who got a child of mine eventually - thirty years ago.

I do not know anything about them.

I try to get into some contact since 1986...

Who knows...

Sometimes the doorbell rings ... !!!